Spyder's Webtastic Hell Hole

so i just need a place to vent and i do not feel like posting on fucking myspace. so i thought i would come back and post on here. So lately nothing has been happening really. the most exiting thing was breaking up with the women i was dating at the time. So i did not loose any sleep over this one at all. I am just tired of everything. I am fucking tired of dealing with people and there retarded shit, that i have to deal with. Why is it that people are overall retarded and just need to be shot... why the fuck is that...
Hell i cannot even think what to talk about right now... fuck it im off for now.

Well i know its been forever since i actually posted something in this thing and well i think it is time for a proper post... I will be going to prcc this coming august so there goes me going to school, its about time really, but hey at least i am going to better educate myself. other than this i work and work and work, still single and going through some mental fucked uped shit that i do not know how to handle and doctors said they can not help me with it, but i am not going to commit myself into an asylum and what not. but hey other than that i am doing good, going to bad moods of depression and what not... well im off later people

is this thing still alive.... well just umm hey everybody... im alive that is all

Well boys and girls it is that time again to sit back and enjoy today's show.
Well I know have a gmc sanoma 2000 model, i have insurence and my liscence reenstated. I can now drive and come and see everyone. I can not wait to do that soon. I love my job, I have meet a few new people and we get along very well, a few i would even consider calling my friends.
Well nothing really new to actually update on, because my life still sucks, I do have a job.
I am a deputy sheriff and i work in the jail as a well jailer... i like the job, pay sucks but i like the job.
well i am off, stay sic fuckers

Well people I think it is about time for me to do a serious update. So where do I begin...
Oh yes, I know have a job, I work at the sheriffs office, as a jailer. I like it so far and its not so bad.
My liscence are suspended as of right now, til I pay the ticket, and I have sent the money order to the justice court so my ticket should get paid soon, and I am now waiting for a recipt from the justice court saying that i have paid the ticket, and then go and pay for my liscene to get reenstated. So until then I cannot get my car, and I have found me a car that I like. Its an 01 Mazda, and its not a bad price, they want 6900 for it and I am going to take out a loan to get the car. So yeah for me. Well that is all I have to say for now and for now I am off for now.
Well I am out
The Dead Who Walks Among Men

So for the past few days I have been having the same dream over and over. It involves a close friend of mine. The fucked up thing about the dream, is where are in Baton Rouge and I went down to just visit and hand out, so that is what happens, we are just hanging out and then everything is well blurry but then the next thing I know is that she bites my neck and starts drinking my blood, and leaves me to die. So as I am laying there in a small puddle of blood, she just sits sits next to me waiting for me to die and says something but I can never remember... Just as the last bit of my blood leaves my body, I wake up... It is just a freaky as dream. That is why I thought I would put it up on here, but oh well.

GOT MY NIPPLES AND TONGUE PIERCED AND GOT A NEW TATTOO... WOOHOO AND I AM IN SO MUCH PAIN RIGHT NOW. IT FEELS AWSOME....

I have look over my past two weeks of being home and seen how i have acted towards certain people. Some of the reaction has been good the others bad. I have cut all ties with my father, mother, and my sister. I do not want to deal with them anymore and I will not deal with them anymore. I am tired of their shit. Then there are people who I have been nice too. I am a new person, I have matured so much since I was in high school. I am different, going to iraq has changed me and I think it is for the better.

HEHE I just ordered my ticket to go see avenged sevenfold and cky at the house of blues in new orleans.... I am so happy.

There are many things that I could post about, but I have something I do want to talk about... Something that scared me, scared me alot. Well I am not going to say what all happened, but I had gotten pissed off and I was already drunk, so what did I do? I took and chuged a bottle of tequilla, well not the whole thing but alot of it.
So as I went and sat down infront of a mirror, it was not me talking so to say. It was well like an evil me coming out and talking. It was scary, and the whole time I was well lets say sober, until I came back into being me, and then all the alcohol hit me like an on coming train. It sucked then I woke up this morning with a horrible hangover, by far the first one I have ever had. I was sick, and fuck did it suck ass. I hated it so much.
I QUOTE " I WILL NEVER DRUNK THAT DAMN MUCH EVERY AGAIN"
This i promice.
Oh it sucked so bad and I hated feeling sick, I still kinda feel sick, but a little better after I took a long ass nap. Well that is pretty much it for now...

JUST AN UPDATE I AM HOME LIVING IN FRANKLINTON LA I ALSO HAVE INTERNET NOW....

I AM HOME AND THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN DO ABOUT IT MUHAHAHAHAHA....
AND ALL HELL AND CHAOS HAS FINALLY RETURNED.

HEY EVERYONE I LEFT SOONER THAN I THOUGHT, I AM IN KUWAIT RIGHT NOW AND I DO NOT KNOW WHEN I WILL BE GETTING A FLIGHT OUT OF HERE, BUT I KNOW IT IS SOON, VERY SOON... MUHAHAHAAAA

Ok this is going to be short and sweet. I loose the internet, so I do not know when I will be getting back exactly, so I will talk to everyone when i get back... talk to everyone later.

Well another day another dollar, as the saying goes... but everything is getting down to the bare minimum over here and we are just waiting this little piggy out to leave this place. Not too much longer and BAM i am out and on my way to the house and I will be so happy. I have like 14 days left and off I go, everyone get ready, cause evil is coming back to the state of Mississippi, and all hell is breaking loose.
A changed person is what I have become, not the fragile little curt everyone new in high school, no a more cunning, demented, crazy curt. Who has faced death and BITCH SLAPPED him in his face. I have no fear, I am not scared to die, to lay my life down for my country. I have learned so much since I have been gone, I have matured in over a year, not that I wanted to or anything, cause I had too. I speak my mind when I have to and sometimes when I do not, I do not hold back I say it how it is, you do not like it, then you can go and shove it up your arse and kiss my ass.
Things have happened, I have shot at people, shot a person, seen dead bodies, smelt the stinch of the dead burning from a suicide bomber blowing himself up, been shot at, by friendlies(friendly fire my ass) and the enemy. I have been hit with bombs, had mortars shot at me, some coming close to hitting me, had rockets fired at me, been exposed to chemicals (we all think was really just bug spray) kicked down doors, raided houses, took and captured the enemy, and tones of other things... And then I ask myself, do I regret any of it? My answer is simple... NO, I never have and I never will, after seeing the things I have seen, having friends over here get killed by these fucking stinking ass, allah worshipping bastards. Fuck them all. I ahve no sympathy for them at all, when I first got here I did, but now, I have none, I have seen what they try to do to us. So you can ask me whatever you would like, I am a changed man, I do not care if you do not like me for it, I could really care less. I did what I had to do to survive, and if you would ask me if I would do it again? I would say fuck yeah.
All these liberal bastards at home, who oppose this war who do not think it is right, who do not think we have made a difference, well guess what, THANKS TO ME AND THE REST OF MY FELLOW SOILDER FROM PAST AND PRESENT, WE HAVE GIVEN YOU THAT RIGHT TO FEEL THAT WAY, WE GAVE YOU THAT FREEDOM.
I am off for now... but I will be back.

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WOULD YOU EVER...
kiss me?
let me kiss you?
watch a movie with me?
go to dinner with me?
let me drive you somewhere?
take a shower with me?
buy me a drink?
take me home for the night?
let me sleep in your bed?
Sing car karaoke w/ me?
re-post this for me to answer your questions?
Come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?
Lock me in your room and take advantage of me?
let me make you breakfast?
help me with homework?
tickle me?
let me tickle you?
stick up for me if i was being put down?
instant message me?
greet me in public?
hang out with me?
bring me around your friends?
marry me?


D0 Y0U...
think im hott?
think im cute?
want to kiss me?
want to cuddle with me?
want to hook up with me?


AM I...
smart?
funny?
cool?
loveable?
adorable?
compassionate?
great to be with?
attractive?
mean?


HAVE Y0U EVER...
thought about hooking up with me?
found yourself wanting a kiss from me?
wished I were there?
had a crush on me?
wanted my number?
been distracted by me?
gotten shit faced with me?

ARE Y0U...
happy you know me?
thinking about me?

DO YOU...

miss me...

love me...

so little to post about. I do have a bitch to go into though cause I am still pissed off at my father. That motherfucker took another 450 out of my account. That brings a grand total to 3450 dollars. He just earned himself two fucking broken legs. It pisses me off, cause he has had over a year to pay me back the money he has borrowed from me, and taken. I know I will never see that money again, and for this I will never speak to him again. So now am I pissed off at this shit bag of a father of mine, I have no place to go. (No linda I am not going to move to Ga)So from the looks of everything for a week or so, I am going to be house hopping stay one night here one night there when I get home. So anyone care to house me for a day or so let me know, will earn my keep. It just pisses me off knowing that I can not trust my own fucking father.
Oh Kris and Josh, when you read this, I might call upon you two to help me accomplish a task... i might suggest bringing a staff or a bokin. He has just pissed me off so goddamned much. I want to kill that son of a bitch for doing this. i could be sitting on 10g's right now if he would not have take that damn money from me. I fucking hate that son of a bitch. I hope he rots in hell for all eternity.
Oh I leave here on the 29th of december and i probly will not leave from kuwait til about the 2 or 3 of january.
Well I am out. later people
the dead who walks among man.

DEMON EYES

You have Demon
Eyes!
Positive Traits: Cunning,
Ambition, Passion, Powerful,
Strong
Negative Traits: Malicious,
Cruel, Emotionless, Sadistic, Deceitful,
Self-Absorbed


Your eyes are the windows to your soul. What type of eyes do you have?
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This suits me to an extent. I am not deciteful though...